A Little Reassurance

Dear J,

It's been 24 hours since our big decision and I thought we could both use a little reminding. We need to remember it's okay when people don't understand, when they question us, when they sound concerned. After all, this isn't something people do everyday but I would bet that most wish they could. We need to remember a balance. While it's okay to try and help people to feel like we are making a wise decision, we can't make their minds think like ours. Sometimes the best answer is, "I just don't know."

Conventionalism will get us nowhere and neither will talking in a responsible voice. The more we try to pursued our audience the more it will end up sounding like we are trying to convince ourselves. There is danger in thinking too much, in chasing down variables. This allows for doubt and insecurities. Remember Abram, he built an alter to the Lord to remember His promises. In the same way, we can choose to hide these promises in our hearts or to let them pass, because they ultimately will.

Bottom line, we are convinced this is our hearts cry, this is our only option if we want to live a full life. That strength, that longing, needs to be how we communicate this truth. We can not settle for anything less.

Lets face it, we aren't cut out for the typical life. We put up a good fight but ultimately gave in. I just hope that we are able to encourage other people and other couples like us that there is a place and use for their talents, as big as their dreams even. In fact, that is a huge part of our mission.

I have many dreams...

- to own a home
- to drive a volvo
- have a family
- getting to cook dinner every night
- win american idol
- be successful with luckilu
- share the love of Jesus
- show others how to love
- be a good wife
- paint my living room teal
- write a book
- master illustrator

Those are just a few. I bet it is obvious which ones I am willing to chase with full abandonment. Honestly, I would give up anything if I thought that meant we would not reach our full potential in ministry and in our family. Nothing is worth that.

So finally, here we are, standing out over the last 9 months of those darker times, soaking in the light and direction. You know what I have to say about that? This light is so refreshing, keep it comin'!

I love you,

Sarah